Nov 30th

Not long to go now XD. My belly button is slightly poking out except when i lay down it sinks in a little. Its so smooth haha.

I had my baby shower on sunday the 28th after my 23rd bday which was the 27th. It was alot of fun and extremely hot!!! i was somewhere between 36-37in around my belly. While i was opening gifts at the end (which went well over the time i thought baby showers would go for haha hadnt been to one before) Tempy was going crazy as if saying 'thats my present dont touch!' but when i went to bed i realized it was cause i took my inhaler and it makes her go nuts i try real hard not to take it but sometimes i need a quick relief when it gets real bad.

I cut the cake real last min and it turned out better then i thought. I did it myself with gem making the frosting we spent ages adding a dab of colour at a time to get it light. I dont want to eat or throw away the bassinet i made from fondant icing for some reason.

I loved all the gifts :) so much. I dont really have a fav but the teddy box that holds certain first baby items from gem is really awesome.

It was just some family and a friend and a half (sandy couldnt stay long). Didnt want one of those big out there ones. Itd scare me.

I have a midwife appointment this friday im curious to know what way Tempy is laying if shes changed from transverse or not. 2 weeks ago a stepin midwife said she had moved her her downwards slightly and that shes getting towards being engaged. I guess i dont really want that even thou it would help me to sleep a tiny bit better.

She moves around so much and in such horrid ways that i cant feel what way shes laying. I just have a feeling that she popped her head back up to my sides althou at times i feel a jolt towards my inner thigh way.

Matthew should be working for only up till xmas ill be making him stay home with me. Its been hard having him away but even harder just at the thought of if i went into labour that he wouldnt get back here in time for the birth (which would be a c section if it happened now hence why he wouldnt make it) and id be so angry. Wouldnt even be able to get ahold of him. So this way hes by my side no matter what happens. Itll be great when he has a job thats situated within auckland rather then out.

Taking deep breaths constantly nothing else helps my morning sickness althou i feel half of the vomiting if from her moving in a way that forces my food up. ek.

Nov 17th

This week ive been attempting to make a bassinet out of fondant icing. Never tried it before except when i was well young i played around with it once. It seems to look 'ok' just aslong as it doesnt break. I made the bottom of the bassinet over a glad tiny container cause its the perfect size and the icing moved abit when drying overnight to cover bits of the container so that i cant take it off haha so its just going to have to stick you cant see it thou.

Last day of antenatal classes this saturday we'll be doing the breastfeeding changing bathing type things. It still feels awkward a tad at classes just cause im so different to everyone else. I try not to answer too many questions. And of course was the only one to ask anything about transverse position so taking a stab i must be the only one with it...just another thing to add making me the odd one out.

I keep getting extremely dizzy and need to vomit pretty bad at every class. Holding it in is the only thing i can do and sip on water take deep breaths. Find it really hard to vomit in toilets i think its the smell.

Tempy likes to jolt far down into the pelvic area i get winded everytime haha.

Its been so long since ive seen anyone. I get real nervous being in a room filled of people just cause ive gotten so use to either being just with mum or matthew.

Still havent found a house. Apartment driving me crazy even more.

Nov 10th

Feels like its been along time since iv posted anything.

Have been busy making up a pregnancy scrapbook but with my mind being so fuzzy i forget where i stick everything INCLUDING the first 2 sets of baby scans from july 9th and july 19th i think they are. im so sad :( could only find gender scans from aug 31st but those first ones ment so much to me. tipped the apartment upside down looking for them and they are not at mums hmmmmm can i have my memory back soon please haha.

Still having morning sickness. Was put on iron tablets this week. Fingers crossed it does some good this time.

Tempy is in transverse position which i always knew just didnt know it would mean special treatment like soon ill be getting her turned around if she doesnt move. Its really scared me. Yeah its fine and all its no real harm but its still very scary to me. Iv had my hopes up so high to have a normal birth. Lets hope it still happens. Although being told that if my water breaks ill need to feel for the cord...i cant get around to that angle...so im looking to matthew for this and i dont think he'll be too happy.

Lately we got the carseat that can sit in the pram frame that was only about $63 they are so cheap these days. Its green too which i really liked :) The Parent and Child show was good we got what we wanted which was just really the nappies and the mag subscriptions to OHbaby and Treasures.

Feeling extremely uncomfortable. No slouching at all for me. Most time i slightly lean back and sideways to get her off everything for a moments relieve. Shes been having the hiccpus alot lately it starts to feel annoying and you can see it when my belly has been very tight which is most the time. So tired.

Still looking for a house.

Oct 25th 6 and a half months

Ahhhhhhh there goes my dinner. Never thought id still be sick at this point. Taking major cap naps. Usually being around 4 hours per nap thou its been months since ive been able to properly clean. I cant bend down to get something without pain/restricted so i use my toes to pick up my shirt or ill get matthew to wash my back and get me my breakfast (which helps prevent morning vomits some days).

Really wanting this cot from baby factory the lullaby one but no way id pay $700 we just going to wait it out thou. Its not like ill just be using it once anyways and it turns to a bed.

Still havent found a new place to live. Its so hard espesh with landlords wanting someone to move in right away yet we need to give our apartment 3 weeks notice and our water company 4 weeks notice in advance. Eeeek. We have only really settled in places like st lukes area to live. Matthew hasnt lived on the other side of auckland before we took him to titirangi so he could see the real parts of auckland.

All we really need to get now is proper clothing which wont be brought till after my week 36 scan since if shes going to be like me... shes going to need very tiny clothing.

Shes so active. Rigth now shes jumping as if a drum is going. So tired. Let mummy sleep Tempy.

She loves Matthew like crazy the way she acts when he talks to her shes a certain way that she plays with only him... not even with me!

Bed time maybe if im lucky ill just passout from being so tired! hehehe.

Matthew gets his restricted on wed so we can drive to my antenatal classes which start on saturday. baby show on friday too. itll be nice. hope we both meet some other couples there.

2 and a half months left...make it go faster...yet at the same time...you know what i mean.

22 Sept Nursery Set up

So its nearing end of september and i am extremely confused of how far along i am. There are so many way to see where i am. on alot of baby sites it goes
(month1) week 1,2,3,4
(month2) week 5,6,7,8
(month3) week 9,110,11,12
(month4) week 13,14,15,16
(month5)week 17,18,19,20
(month6) week 21,22,23,24 - and since im week 23 on the 23rd that would say im nearing month 7 but if you do it like this (since im week 1 from april 15th)
(month1) april 15- may 14
(month2) may15- june 14 - you get the drift. which would make me 5m 1w today. thats a whole montha dn a half difference. see why im confused?

The weekend just passed we setup the nursery. Got the changing table, bassenet up and i stuck all the lil pieces we have like bids towels blankets and toys in the table shevles (still in packets thou). next we just need to strip down my old draws to repaint them.

I stuck my bear (which has a nappy and bid on) in the bassenet and it makes me want to pick him up and cuddle him...which iv always been like to my bear anyways... its not weird. i just love my bears. better to have lots of love then none at all.

Morning sickness still has not gone away. Every few weeks ill have a day where i feel completely normal which lasts about an hour.

You can see her body skim across my tummy when shes flipping around. I do worry alot about how much she moves and if the placenta cord will get tangled up.

Going to be very nice when matthew has his car any day now. No more busing around it makes my tummy juggle very sore!

BABY SHOWER SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sep 10th Gender Scan

So i had the gender scan on aug 31 and baby wouldnt sit still i was so nervous trying so hard not to cross my fingers for a girl incase it backfired. But all was okay cause there was no sign of a little noo noo so shes a girl :)

Dylan and Jaz also came along and got the scan on dvd you can see her tinkling and swallowing and stuff.

So happy!

Will be sanding the old draws my sister and i had when we were babies as its blue, my nephew was going to have it but he needs ones he can see the top of to put his things on.

Still wanting to make alot of the clothing just cause thats something iv always been good at perfection sewing (its been awhile thou). i use to make my barbie clothing haha.

Aug 17th 4th Month

So i was reading my mums big anatomy book and such cause i knew i wasnt reaaaaly
16 weeks and i was right im 18weeks on thursday!

Darn scan lady telling me i ovulated at a later date is such bull poop! its not even possible to ovulate 8days after my body had even told me "hey just so you know i released an egg for ya itll be fertilized in the next few hours" and then a week later no monthly. How can i ovulate after iv missed my monthly and already done the urine test. Im too smart for her.

Soooooooooo that means i am in the first week of month 4!!!!! AND I CANT BELIEVE IT!!!

Too scared still to put my hand back on my belly. The kicks are a shock. Use to feeling it inside instead.

Aug 16th Feeling kicks on hands.

Tonight when watching tv i had my hand resting under my belly button and out of no where i felt a quick tap on my hand. I quickly pulled it away i was pretty scared. Never have i felt that before. I couldnt feel kicks and movement within the belly but never on the outside. I put my hand back to see if it would happen again and about 5min later my hand quickly pulled away with such a shock after another kick.

It was really scary. Felt like if you put your hand under your shirt and tap your palm it was like that.

Gutted matthew was away working and couldnt feel it but it wont be the last time anyways.

2 more weeks till gender scan XD

Aug 12th kicking about now

Last week on the 6th matthew came with me to my midwife appointment which was real nice. She said im low risk of DS and everything else which is great.

She asked if we wanted to hear the heartbeat and matthew wasnt paying attention to what she was meaning but still recorded the sound coming from the piece of equiptment that was theheartbeat. He didnt know that its what it was. So there was no 'wow' reaction just the 'ah okay strange noise yup' till about 2 or so hours later having dinner/lunch in the mall he was listening to it and i said 'what do you think about hearing the heartbeat?' he was pretty shocked haha and kept playing it.

Get to find out the gener on the 31st of this month. Please a girl please a girl!!!!

Getting better aswell now. Still feel real sick everyday though and moving around proves very hard and very sore.

Oh and he or she is kicking about form about week 14 (16 atm) started feeling them moving around now i can feel it stronger.

Aug 1

Definitly getting better now. Doesnt mean to say theres no pain and such.
Those mini contractions you normaly wouldnt be able to feel are a pain
in the butt it usualy only happens when im watching tv and it hits for
afew seconds. Deff a sign i need to exercise more.

Baby should be the length of my hand (which is only like 15cm) and
the weight of an apple... just not sure what type of apple -__-

REAL excited for my next scan to know the gender. Not very patient
with these things. Been thinking of that Intelligender test but not sure
if id wana spend that type of money or wait another 3-7 weeks.

From happy to not happy.

A handful of times ive tried making an entry tonight.
But each time it ends up on how angry ive been getting
that i dont get cuddles and sleep alone with matthew
working away. he could get a job in auckland if he
actually tried! i dont know whats stopping him.
So i pretty much live at mums till hes home on
weekends. very angry about it.

I need physical contact at least be told how much
im missed.

I dont like the going back to the apartment when
he comes home cause it smells there and i end
up staying in bed sick even more and hes on his
xbox. The place needs to be fully cleaned including
everything wash ALL clothing ALL bedding even
the walls and carpet cause the smell is whats driving
me away from the place. If only i had my beanbag
cleaned and filled i could sit in the sun. But i dont
have the energy to go get it filled. ID get halfway
to the warehouse and ill need to vomit.
Thats what i really need, company.

Week 11-12 Scan

This is the 11-12 week baby scan.

You can see the fingers, arms, feet, legs, heartbeat, nose everything.
The converter i used only let me convert half the actual
video so you dont get to see them moving around.

The week 13 scan i just had after this they had the hiccups
and so were constantly bouncing around and had the fist
against their mouth :) Matthew couldn't
keep his eyes away from the screen.

7th July

Sooo heading to week 12 now. And im not getting any better.
I had one day last weekend where i didnt bring anything up.
Mum thinks its cause i was distracted.

Last night was horrible bewteen midnight and 8am i vomited 7 times.
Didnt have breaky till well after 2pm.

Today i got a list of midwives so ive emailed one so far.
I want to give birth at the Watakerie Birth Unit. Im already
formiliar with it and am confortable knowing i can give birth
where i was born and such.

I want it to hurry up and get to 6 months at least so i can put
a cot on layby. Going to paint it purple and paint lil diamonds
on it. I will know the type i want when i see it. Already got a
bassinet. Ahhh just want to do the shopping now. Iv been looking
forward to this first baby shopping for along time. I wont be using
my old teddys tho id rather have new ones ima buy Peter Rabbit and
duckies and such. Deff an elephant ill be looking out for a certain type
i use to have one and mums looking for the baby glow bub ones i had
one of those too every child should have one.

Back to bed.

June 20th

So ive been noticing that to get a better sleep i need to wake up about 7amish for my morning puke and have breakfast while still laying down otherwise after every few table spoons of whatever im having it comes up right away... so no more toast for breakfast unless if i eat it real slow...like REAL slow.. i cant breath when it comes up.

Ive been home since Friday with Matthew he's cleaned the house vaccumed and cooked me food cut up my apples even rinsed my puke bucket when i cant. Its been real nice to not have to feel all 'oh god now i have to get up again to eat something thatll barf up anyways' when he's home. Waking up with warmth is prob the best part. I don't like the smell of his sprays though it triggers my senses off.

Right now my nausea tablets have kicked in and are stopping me from being sick but at the same time it makes me twitch and pain rushes constantly over me till its out of my system.

Im looking forward to it calming down. Im wanting to get out and walk around, maybe head to the gym downstairs (put matt on the treadmill to loose the mini belly roll hehe).

Apart of my is dead scared of going to the scan and there's no heartbeat. I know its normal to feel something like this. But ill be having my eyes covered to till hear it when it gets done.

Next week im going to the docs like the told me to during my 5th week. Not sure if its for a scan or just checkup but i better be given real good painkillers panadol doesnt do anything.

Ashley x

Going out is a pain.

Today mums actualy taking me to get some pjs since mine are well too small. Yes i grow too ya know. So it's the first time i'm going out of the house duringmy morning sickness and without the bucket >.<

I'm really worried my breakfast is going to want to run on out and there's no bathroom to run to.

Still not up to going around to more baby stores just yet. Won't be putting anything on layby till well 6months or so. Can't wait to be buying my own stuff im extremely picky at these thing. Not sure what shade of purples i'd want to use. There will barely be pink i'd go nuts if all the colours for certain clothing and prams and cots and toys were PINK!!!!! Not all girls like it. Except tutu's that's okay. And bids, sometoys, blankets.

All too worried more about not being able to have my own choices when it comes to buying stuff instores that there will be shit variety. And what's the point buying 2nd hand stuff when you can get new things at half price all the time. Hence why i have so many shoes and clothes cause of sales i don't like buying full price.

I CAN SMELL THE DOG AND ITS BADDDD! Dextor needs a bath badddd and now he's hiding under the bed cause he can hear the bath running.

Should prob go finish my breakfast if i don't eat it slow i get a major stitch.

First Entry

Okay so this is my first entry.

I'm 8 weeks pregnant and today's pretty much my first day without my food ending up in the loo which is fantastic.

We tried for baby to be born in Feb but boy did i forget to add afew weeks so due date is Jan 20th, 10 days after Matthew's 24th. Need less to say Matthew's men are abit too fast. I'm sure that'll give afew of you a shiver or 2 haha.

Morning sickness started around 5 weeks while i was off to the doctor's to get a test when halfway there i had to run off the bus to find the nearest bathroom to bring up my breakfast. Strangely enough as i walked back to the bus stop the driver had waited for me, how brilliant is that! I really should of rung up the head office and put in a real good word but was way too run down to get a name or notice the bus number.

I've never been so glad to have a bucket this much.

Hard to eat most things but mums getting me to eat dinner and such. Milo's are proving to be a great sub for between meals to stop to extreme hunger pains that come on so quickly.

Will i think that's enough to write about today. I'll update more espesh when i go in for a 10 week checkup. Still can't believe i wasn't given folic acid tablets, maybe cause i was already taking them in advance and up till 5 weeks not too sure yet.

Cheerio xox Ashley.